My name is Surya TeJa{ Known as HareKrsna7495 on internet}.I had completed my +2 and now doing B.tech Engineeering. My Home town is Rayachoty, Andhra Pradesh, India.I really thank you all for taking time to read this below. Iam not a professional programmer, web-designer or anything. I also don’t know much about the Internet and Computer as much you people know. My Computer knowledge is purely based on My Own and My Genius Friend Pavan Kumar Yadav, The Founder and CEO of www.onlydigit.com. I really thank him from the bottom of my heart as He helped me learn a lot about Web. I really, love the God who is the supreme.
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About this Blog: I really don’t have the idea of Making a blog and maintain it. But, my situations and my life are the one that made me create this blog and behave in such a variety manner. Through this blog, my real Intention was to tell this world about Me, The Spirituality and the Environment. I really wanted this world to make know about my views, my Ideas and all my Stuff.
My Real and Normal Life:
I already know that In this page we should write just about the author, but Iam making this world know about my life.
From my 3rd Class, I started studying in My hometown Rayachoty. Iam a Topper from my Child-hood as Iam studying well. This was similar upto my 8th class. From my 9th class, my life came at the stop where it had come to a Shocking and Vast change.
In my 9th class, I went to a place called palamaneru Near Chittoor District, Andhra Pradesh for studying my 9th standard. There, due to Home-sick and all other reasons, I came back to Rayachoty in just one week.
OK…This may be fine in many of the children. My dad also agreed for my return. But, after coming back, I don’t know why, I started to fear when I heard To go to School, Read my books or any other related to Studies. This grew up to a situation where I used to cry and made my mom and Dad cry due to my un-understandable fear of Education.
I too cannot understand my situation because I was crying all the day in my house without going to school and used to say to my parents “I want to Die,I don’t want to make you people cry and all other such things”. My parents are my Real and Lovely Gods.They got worried about my further life. They took me to many Psychiatrists, but it was nothing simply a waste of my dad’s Valuable time and Money.
From my Bday i.e., October13th,I don’t know why, I used to Go to school without any fear upto February and again started the previous situation. Somehow, I had completed my 10thstandard.
All people around me(they may be my friends, Teachers, Parents, Relatives and all)say Iam a gifted one because I got 90 percent of marks even not studying in my school or at home but, by just studying 2 days before my exams start.I lost my interest in studies from my 9th class and completed my 10th in a way as if it was a fundamental for everyone.
From my 9th class, I don’t know why and how, but, became a great follower and lover of Lord Buddha..I started collecting all matter about him may be pics, matter, places etc..
Hesitatingly and Under pressure, I had completed my +2 also and got 91%. I can’t really believe that now also.
From here, started my tremendous and dangerous Journey,with which, I had made all my relatives, Parents, Near and dear ones, my friends fall into sorrow on account of me.
I started saying that I would study animation. At first, my parents told ‘no’ to that as they don’t know what animation means and the job opportunities we get with it. But, my dad, for the sake of me, came with me to Chennai with my 5 friends to enquire about the animation college. That day, was the day, when my dad’s business was very busy due to festival season, but for me, he came that day even not thinking of the money he would get lost.
I started saying that I would study animation. At first, my parents told ‘no’ to that as they don’t know what animation means and the job opportunities we get with it. But, my dad, for the sake of me, came with me to Chennai with my 5 friends to enquire about the animation college. That day, was the day, when my dad’s business was very busy due to festival season, but for me, he came that day even not thinking of the money he would get lost.
He had a lot
of hope on me that I was going to study the one I like, so I would have a good
future and a best job. All his hopes and imaginations have just become clouds
in the sky due to my behavior.
We have paid
the fees in the animation college before the joining date. I joined the college
on July 5th. My mom, my bro also came accompanying me to Chennai. I
don’t know why but my heart used to say,”Don’t go away from your parents”. The
other reason is Homesick. I cried a lot n lot saying that I wouldn’t stay there
and would come back. Many incidents are happened in the mean time between me n
my dear parents to send me back to that college not bcoz of thinking that the
money would get lost, but thinking of my lose of future in the one I like.
I would say
to everyone not to spend much money on useless things as they provide a
temporary happiness and also I say them to think about their parents as our
parents are not as rich as Ambani and all. Now, I had understood that they
spend small amounts of money on temporary things, but, where as me, spend huge
thousands uselessly (neither for social service nor temporary happiness, just
losing it away as we have lost that money in the theft). They at least can have
temporary happiness by spending the amount on eating something they buy and
with dresses they buy for at least 2 or 3 years and all. But, where as I, spend
the money uselessly(much uselessly)
My dad
thought I was losing my life due to homesick. So, he convinced me and came with
me to leave me in Chennai for the second time just for my sake.
Here, my dad
was not worrying about the money he spent, but was worrying about the future of
mine. I understood that so clearly in the case of my dad.
So, he again
came with me to Chennai and left me in the morning. I again started to cry by
night and called my dad crying. My dad just left the city by the time and again
came from that outer place in auto crying for me. He, with his heart, full of
sorrow slept on the open place that night not even thinking of the mosquitoes
that bite him and the cool breeze at the sea. He even convinced me a lot again
but I did not listen to him. I again came back to rayachoty.
From then, I
did not want to go again away from my parents. I do not know what to do and how
to take care of my parents in the future and all.
But, my
friend Pavan, who also wanted to study animation, joined in the same animation
college at Hyderabad. He called me for accompanying him there so we could be at
a single place. I felt tempted and again went to Hyderabad to join that
college. Here, I understood the real pain and sorrow when I again left my
parents. I had my mama (my mom’s younger bro) there in Hyderabad working as a
software engineer. He is the lovely one of mine who deals all new info about me,
the technology around us and all other important news. He knew about my presence
and Behavior in Hyderabad and took me to his house. He, for the sake of me,
came 20 km long to take me with him from Talkie-Town to Mytri Vanam and took me
again to his home. He let me stay in his him and provided me with all the
facilities. He wanted to make me convinced but at last I made him also cry due
to my behavior. I expensed him and had become an obstacle in his Home. He is
the next one who has the equal heart and understanding capacity equal to my
dad.
I, at last,
being making everyone move into sorrow has decided to die or move away from my
near and dear ones by joining in ISKCON and BAPS or RK Math…
But, on my
dad’s request and love, I came back again to my hometown.
My DAD:
If I want to
say something about my dad, I can’t really express him and his way in words. To
say a few points:
1. He takes our family every year to an
excursion to distant places.
2. Every time, he goes to other town, he
brings something new for me, my mom and my bro.
3. He entertains us in all the way by
dancing, singing some comedy songs and joking with us.
4. I can say about him in these 3 points
I can perfectly say that if anyone other than me would have been his son
or daughter, he would have enjoyed my dad’s love a lot.
Sorry dad for not taking good care of you. I should not have been born as
your son.
Thank you
for reading this life story of mine...
Present
Condition: I am now studying Engineering in my Hometown Rayachoty at SSITS
I know you
people are getting bored and you may be thinking,
“IS this a
Life History?”
But, to really
know the pain I caused to my parents, I request you people to contact me by:
Mobile: (0)-9885572357
Really, if
you people can believe or not, I regret a lot for the sorrow I caused to my
parents by me and the money I had wasted. I am mainly mentioning the money bcoz
we don’t know the value of money as we just know to spend the money not them.
I even
provide the links below for downloading the expense I had caused to my dad.
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